First Five Days Of Santa Cruz

Overall this school is amazing. You get the HELLA nice people that greet you everytime and they are always wanting to be your friend. The teachers aren't teaching at a pay limit. They exceed any stereotypes. However can they fix a broken heart?

Breathing Is Just A Rhythm

Right now I saw someone's profile and it said ...take one day at a time. It was calling to me. That shining beacon of hope that everyone talks about witnessing finally came to me. I should not be mislead or misguided into a predetermined future for myself. I set up a wall if I do this. MUST OBLIGE TO PLANS I HAVE ENTRUSTED IN MYSELF. That's all that it calls for. Being myopic not having an open view of the world around me. I am leaving her and no longer would I be able to hold her everyday, to tell her I love her and see her eyes up close. 500 miles is the other side of the world for me and I cannot bear to travel these miles alone, I was scared, now im not. I know I have you and my path just seems shorter. Yes the other side of the world is far, but we have airplanes, I can get here. No doubt you are the most important thing to me and you will stay in that place forever. I love you and your imperfections. They make you human. You can write a whole essay!!! I just can seem to wrap it around my head that I am leaving. So soon and I don't want to mislabel this a summer love, because truly like I said, it's a forever 18 year old adult love...some say strong tides are dangerous, but really they just get you there faster.

live day by day not tomorrow by today

It's Hard To Believe.......

Seems like just yesterday that I had my heart broken and decided to just have fun and not take life seriously. However old flower seemed to bloom out of a valley of ash and now this has brought us here. I know it is to early to predict but I think I found the one. Then one that makes me smile and really uplifts my spirits. The one that now knows that I cry when I watch UP even though I watched it five times. She knows who I am and I admire that. I love the lady. <3>