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The Strokes all day hahaha I love them

Post - Moderation

It is a guilty pleasure of mine to tease people into different things. When I know I can get my way with them I usually play the " Me?I'm just a victim, a pawn in the big specter of problems" role. Easy. Papitas. How stupid do people really think I am? It is funny to watch them flatter themselves thinking that they are showing me the ropes, maing me a better person.

Just came back from Santa Cruz this week, and I loved it. I will try to post pictures later. I met new people and I think that is amzing.

I have a boyfriend. I thought I would never say that. Yeah I know its socially wrong but I don't want to be stupid and say I don't like it( unlike others) and I'm glad I made the decision. He's great. He tolerates my stupidity. Shineii Mesu Buta Domo hahahaha. I love him.....

Reventon 2009

Funny I don't see her and once i did everything rekindles. I am left feeling retarded and i feel it is always my fault. WTF why? Today we went to the Reventon and i had a lot of fun watching Paulina Rubio strut her stuff onstage. KATRINA HAD HER FIRST DRINK!!!! I was like whaaaaat here is this girl who has always said she wasnt going to drink, DRINKING!!! It was awesome. Then we had some tacos and I beat her. Perfect! I had a good night .

Macetas Peludas

I have not written in this blog for a while now. I got my new phone which takes amazing pictures. I went out with Carla and Art. Before that i just kicked back with Art. Umm we went to go see Harry Potter and it was great! Good Day today I was happy. I am NOT wearing sweats anymore!!!! hahhahahah.

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My phone broke! I have no life but that which secludes me from everyone, my home. I can't go out as much and I don't know it seems my parents know about my recent situation. They call me out on little things. It fucken bothers me dude. They are too nosy and they need to stop. According to them it's wrong to talk back to your parents but what are you going to do when that's all you can do. Very fucked up. I miss my friends. Where are they?

Strange...

Strange how I have not been indifferent about the situation. I feel the same. At the same time however, small things begin changing. I no longer have dreams. I can not envision endless capabilities anymore. I can't fly across the ocean or go through some purple mountain rollercoaster. I miss my dreams, in both senses. Days go by and I don't attempt to be better. "I'll save it for college" is my answer to the life that I am living. Seeing as how I am missing deadlines and have to work harder, there might not be a college. Imagine. No future? I need my dreams back! Give them back to me you bitch! You think it is easy to become my perverse dreamcatcher without me hanging you on my wall. My friend told me she was disappointed in what I had become. That after the most current of my breakups I had changed and become somebody she never knew before. She was my ex too, therefore she knows me, but what makes me wonder is if the person she knew was the real me. I do not want to deviate from my thoughts though. I am working towards having my dreams back. I have not wrote on ,my journal since two saturdays ago. You do the math. Sucks huh? Well hopefully they come back soon. I am working towards a better future. I can't miss anymore deadlines. Well today I was driving all day long. I wanted to meet up with ART but i could not. Maybe next time R2D2. Well I have to go to sleep because I work at my shitty ass job tomorrow. Let me dream today?

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oh! one more thing...

I PASSED MY AP TEST!

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Sundayyy...

I guess I realized that I should not jump into conclusions that others set. I don't know I seem to have expanded my options in life. Can you tell I am being all stupid nervous!? What is bothering me is what will my parents think? I hold their thoughts in a high altar and to have them be disappointed is not on the top of my list. Who cares I am not going to shy away from new things. Good day, yesterday. Fair, Park, Jack's, Bench, Jack's, Bench, Tree, Home <3.>

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Gone?

I'm sitting here waiting for Art and listening to Carolina Liar. It seems weird weird how I love this song so much. It has GOD, or the misnomer of creation, in the song. Is it my subconscious telling me that I need this entity as a part of my life. Or does it just appeal to me because there has been a minimal twitter crusade that has got me thinking. I don't know but hey I don't like church and I feel I am entitled to say so. Constant fights in my house only remind me that it will be a part of my life forever. Now I am sitting next to a tree in south gate park and listening to Everyone Who Pretended to Like Me Is Gone by the Walkmen. I am bad at interpreting lyrics but this song appeals to me because the chorus is " I made the best of it". After I lost a lot of fairweather friends I got to notice who liked me for me and who was just here until school was out. Yes some losses hurt but I made the best of it. Can Art get here already it's getting cold and yeah......

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Exhausted...

I'm tired of being everybody's bitch. I always listen, comment and try to make everyone else's life better. I lose myself to help find others and it is not bad it is just, I LOSE MYSELF. These past weeks without Bere and Kat have been weird for me because I don't have anyone to confide in and give me a hug of relief. I try to do that with others but I know I am not giving undivided attention. Their attention is a whore, a polygamist; always thinking of something or someone else when it comes to my problems. "Oh yeah that sucks but yesterday..."...changing the subject. I don't know I just began to feel alone all of a sudden and it is not nice. Then again what is.
Yesterday was the fourth of July. The day we celebrate people that did not want to pay their taxes. We also celebrated my cousin Lety's quince. I told my cousin my story and she was like wow! Lol! So we decided to try and go to club ab 540 next week! Lol! No but I really want to go visit her at riverside. Get away for a while. I'll update more on today later because I haven't done anything worthy of an audience. If I have one.

Art Blvd.

It seems unexpected when a person that represents some of the things you dislike appeals to you massively. It became apparent that as soon as I began talking to Art he was someone different from the rest of my friends. He admits he is not the smartest, and I admire that. How does one put aside their pet peeves so quickly?" I guess you just do" would be my answer. I had fun today...

I went to work today! I sitting late at night talking on the phone with Alma and then Carla called and told me to call the job agency. They informed me that I had a position at the Forever 21 factory in Bandini! I began work at 8:30 a.m and was stoked! I was going to gain money and buy my new phone. However 3 hours into the job I began to realize that it was not easy. I sat in the outside area next to the loncheras with Carla and talked about what we were doing. I was using the palette jack to throw away trash like a quarter mile away, about 40 times!, and Carla was inspecting clothes( yeah its a pain). After another two hours my legs began to ache! I was about to start crying but I realized I was in it for the money. I stayed put and went to the restroom to try and stretch my legs. I began to count down until finally, at 4:30 p.m we finished! I was releaved and happy to finish.Tomorrow i go in at 7:oo a.m and come out at 12:00 p.m ugh. I need the money though. Funny thing, Martha cancelled because of her beach thing. I went out with Art, who would not go in because he thought I was not there lol!!! We didn't talk for a while and then it began to flow. I learned new things about him (floutas) and he learned about me. It was a good day overall. I want to do it more often. Jon AYALA lol. yumm.

The Study of the Road...

So yesterday I was extremely tired and did not get to record the great day I had yesterday. So yesterday I was at the dentist canceling some braces appointment for my brother and decide to go study the driving test that JULIO passed!!! That is so awesome! Anyways, I got to his house and waited 10 minutes like a retard outside his house until I finally knocked. His little brother answered. I sat down and let Jackie borrow my phone. She likes to take pictures, I hope she becomes a good photographer one day. So then they left and Julio and I watched Oprah and Tyra in the same show! It was about the Rihanna Chris brown mierda but it is all good. I almost fell asleep and then had to leave. I had fun =).


Friends are those who keep close watch of you and are the most honest. Julio is one of those.

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My Friend's Keeper...

So today I went to the movies with Katrina, Alexis, Carlos, Denise and Storm. We all met at Burger King, the spot we go to like three times a in one movie day! So i was looking at the ketchup packets and it reminded me of the conversation I had with Art in the morning of how ketchup is gross. Then we kept stealing Alexis's scratch and win's and Carlos and Stormy kept winning. We kept getting food and it was funny. We saw the movie and I cried. I don't know why. I began to understand why I loved these guys so much. They knew exactly what I was going through even if I didn't tell them. I appreciate their friendship and hope that I can stick with them forever. Well at least I know one thing; my marriage with Katrina, April 27, 2015! I know everyone is invited. I think that I may be falling for this person a lot more than I expected, but she just can't see. The lesson of today was to live life to the fullest and not to let anyone stop you from something you want to do. Ah old habits die hard and hopefully I will not regret anything. I am looking forward to Friday! I can't wait. Ever feel like going out with the people you love the most and having a great time everyday? I do. I am just hoping these vacations turn out like today everyday.I am just very emotional i guess. Well i would really write more about today but i am actually really tired lol. UH goodnight. I got my new haircut and now I have to get used to it. UGH!!!

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